Surrender To The Miracle

Several years ago, I was having a particularly stressful day. My mother had recently passed away and I missed her physical presence terribly. On top of all that, bills were starting to pile up, and I was beginning to wonder if the struggle would ever end. And then, someone called out of the blue and said some very disturbing things to me. After the call, all that I can remember is that I hung up the phone and wept. To this day, I don’t even remember who was on the other end of that phone call, or even what they said to me. I only remember wondering how I would go on.

And then, I did what any self-respecting woman would do, when her life was falling apart. I turned on my answering machine, closed my office door, and I went to the zoo.

The minute I made this decision, I felt better immediately, like a child with a mission, and in under 1/2 hour I was there. I paid my admission fee and walked inside the zoo gates. Instantly, it all came flooding back to me….that feeling. That feeling of aliveness, excitement and wonder, of what lay ahead for me in this delightful place. It was the exact same feeling I had as a child when my father took me to Belmont Park in Montreal. Belmont Park was a very large and magical amusement park and I loved it.

I remember feeling this same feeling right after my dad bought the entrance tickets and we stepped inside together. That feeling of childhood innocence and glee in anticipation of what was to come.

And so, I spent the afternoon re-living those childhood moments once again. I sat with the beautiful, white, polar bears and watched them frolic together with wild abandon, until I was transported back in time to a place I had visited several years ago, called Little Cornwallis Island, in the North West Territories, very close to the North Pole. I was sitting in a red jeep at twilight. Right in front of the engine stood a magnificent, majestic, polar bear. I remember the feeling of absolute dread at being so close to such a potentially dangerous beast as it lumbered towards me, and at the same time, I felt the exhilaration of seeing such a splendid being in the wild, right before my very eyes.

I was jolted back to reality with the sound of a wolf howling, and I scurried over to get a closer look. I sat down on the ground, next to a group of wolves, and watched them very closely and intently as they howled. I had never actually seen a wolf howl before and I was captivated. They raised their heads upwards, as if offering themselves to something higher, and then released the most beautiful sound, as if it were a song, their song, out into the world. It was a truly delightful sight to behold.

I spent the rest of the afternoon just experiencing all the different animals. I was touched by a tiny, baby monkey, nestled inside her mothers breast, and the absolute sweetness of their bonding. I was mesmerized by the deepest and wisest eyes I had ever encountered, in the body of the most beautiful owl I had ever seen. But the “piece de resistance” were the butterflies. I wasn’t prepared for what I was to find there, and when I opened the door and hundreds of glorious, iridescent butterflies descended upon me, tickling my face, I felt as if I had died and gone to heaven.

I returned home from the zoo that evening, a new woman. And a delightful surprise was waiting for me in my mail box. A letter advising me that a cheque for $31,000.00 was on its way. And no, I wasn’t expecting it. All my troubles were over, at least for a little while.

Looking back now all those years ago, I can understand what happened at the time. I was overwhelmed and I just let go. I surrendered to allowing the joy back into my life, and from that place of allowing, a miracle happened.

Where is your joy, your place of allowing? It doesn’t have to be at the zoo. Perhaps for you, it is looking into the eyes of your beautiful, golden retriever, as you caress her soft, fur lined body; or sneaking out to an afternoon matinee and giggling in the back seat, in the dark, with your best friend and a tub of buttered popcorn; or just working in your garden, and letting the sweet smell of the earth transport you, and the flowers caress your soul.

Whatever it is, find it, seek it out if you have to. Capture those feelings of aliveness and exhilaration and let them take you to that place of absolute Joy.

Surrender to the Miracle!

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  1. Lola Fayemi / Nourishment......’s avatar

    What a lovely post. I’m a massive fan of surrendering, I always find that when I resist it nothing works until I give into it and then the waves of releif – aah bliss!

    For those who don’t know how I suggest when you’re in those moments you listen to that part of you that says “I just want to….” and do it. In your case it was “I just want to go to the zoo.” It often doesn’t make logical sense.

    In love, light and abundance

    Lola

  2. Tamsin Butters’s avatar

    Hi Veronica
    I loved reading this in my inbox this morning! I’ve been feeling a bit out of sorts (my grandmother is not too well and some other stuff right now …) and reading “Surrender to the Miracle” just lifted my spirits and made me really want to go out this w/end and do something in the way that you went to the zoo. Your description of all that you experienced that day and then finding the cheque in your post box when you returned home just illustrated how just stepping outside for a moment and taking yourself to another place can completely alter your mindset. And how you can be feeling low in one moment, but have the power to change that by transporting yourself to a happier place! Just a beautifully written post, with a great message …….. Tamsin

  3. Lisa’s avatar

    I loved reading your story. I also am a fan of Surrender. There really are miracles when you are able to live in the moment without judging it. You might enjoy reading some of my surrender stories.

    http://www.isurrenderthis.com
    http://www.isurrenderthis.blogspot.com

    In blessed surrender,
    Lisa

  4. Rich’s avatar

    Hi Veronica,
    Thanks for the beautiful images. Your Spirit obviously loves to express its elegance and wonders through you!
    Rich

  5. Michel Green’s avatar

    Oh how beautiful! I can fully connect to the feeling of being overwhelmed – full to overflowing with so much “stuff” – others as well as mine. How generous of you to gift yourself with that visit to the zoo – I could absolutely feel and follow the sensation of relaxation and letting go and the beautiful opening to the serenity and “rightness” of Life as you touched and were touched by the various animals – the empowering, teaching, joyous expressions of Life they give to us. Thank you for taking us on this “meditation” with you.

  6. mimimaui’s avatar

    You write so beautifully! This is quite inspiring. Thank you!

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